lost in mindless world.

Back stabbing.

2012-02-02T03:24:00.001+08:00

You can take that knife plunge into my back over and over again til it pierce through my chest, I'm used to it. Do it la.

Me.

2012-01-24T01:34:00.001+08:00

I bought a make up thingy for myself. So not myself, I know. Haha. Bought liquid eye liner, mascara, brushes and eye shadows. Haha. Okay. I'm excited but at the same time I felt like Fucked up because I don't knkw how to use it. Time to learn. Hahaha.

Okay alright.. I know it has been a long time since I blog. Forgive me for my mistakes in my grammar. It sucks. Haha.

Love

2011-12-23T01:26:00.001+08:00

Love me without fear. Trust me without wondering. Love me without restrictions. Want me without demand. Accept me for who I am.

Healing,

2011-12-21T01:54:00.001+08:00

Healing the heart is a gradual process of unfoldment, one layer at a time. Each time we think we are through our healing, we really just healed one layer.

Change.

2011-12-20T23:02:00.001+08:00

Don't change because they ask you to. They should accept the you are. They should adapt the way you are.

your heart

2011-12-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

It is impossible for your heart to open fully to another when it is completely closed to someone in your past.

Fucking Shit

2011-11-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

Even our 24th together you can't spend time with me.

Hmmm.

2011-11-10T19:44:00.001+08:00

Aku akui aku merinduimu.

Teramat sekali.

2011-09-16T02:37:00.001+08:00

"Love You Like A Love Song"

[Verse 1]
It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with the best of them
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Verse 2]
Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me, what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hypnotized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
You are... And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Bridge]
No one compares
You stand alone, to every record I own
Music to my heart that's what you are
A song that goes on and on

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

I love you...like a love song...

2011-09-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

"Rain On Me"

It's a sunny day
So I got nowhere to hide
Not a cloud in the sky
So I'm pretending I've got something in my eyes
Just so you won't see me cry

So I wait for the storm, (oooh)
To hide all my tears
But it's taking too long
But I won't run for the door, (oooh)
'Coz if you think I'm weak then that makes you strong

So rain on me,
What's the price of thunder?
Rain on me
It's like I'm waiting in a hundred degrees
So rain on me
I'll be standing under
So rain on me
Disguise my tears so that you'll never see
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)

I won't give you the pleasure
To see me breaking
And that's how you'll remember me
You're not worth it
I'll get better, only down for a second
I won't give you the victory

So I wait for the storm, (oooh)
To hide all my tears
But it's taking too long
But I won't run for the door, (oooh)
'Coz if you think I'm weak then that makes you strong

So rain on me,
What's the price of thunder?
Rain on me
It's like I'm waiting in a hundred degrees
So rain on me
I'll be standing under
So rain on me
Disguise my tears so that you'll never see
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)

It's a sunny day,
So I got nowhere to hide
Not a cloud in the sky
So I'm pretending I've got something in my eyes
Just so you won't see me cry

So rain on me,
What's the price of thunder?
Rain on me
It's like I'm waiting in a hundred degrees
So rain on me
I'll be standing under
So rain on me
Disguise my tears so that you'll never see
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)
Let it rain (let it rain, let it rain on me, let it rain, let it rain on me)
Let it rain (my tears are the rainfall and flow right to the sea)

Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, oh
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain

You

2011-08-24T02:40:00.001+08:00

Have my heart.

What the hell

2011-06-27T20:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know what goes through my mind.

I'm so confused.

Wire mix and tangle. Ugh just what i need.

You know

2011-06-03T03:27:00.003+08:00

always love you bee.

You know

2011-06-03T03:27:00.001+08:00

always love you bee.

I think I..

2011-05-26T00:26:00.001+08:00

pms-ing.

Really

2011-05-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

I give up.

How much I try my best to be patience.

People just don't see it.

What the hell.

2011-05-10T03:05:00.001+08:00

What good is love?

It comes and take its toll on us.

Feels like...

2011-04-11T00:47:00.001+08:00

I tried my best.

I still feel like a failure.

I feel like breaking down.

Poke poke poke

2011-04-08T14:26:00.001+08:00

The poking in my head. Hurt.

Crushed

2011-03-29T21:10:00.001+08:00

Feeling crushed like those ice blends.

Okay crap. I dont feel like moving.

I feel like just stay at one place and wonder alone.

People will think im crazy but they dont understand.

Love is a very impressive and difficult achievement for me and its not only on one particular area. Its about all. Family personal friends alll those shiit. All those shiit.

..

2011-03-24T01:35:00.001+08:00

Usually i dont give up on others.

However others give up on me.

Sickening.

..

2011-03-24T01:28:00.001+08:00

It is always my fault huh?

How

2011-03-16T17:31:00.001+08:00

How to put this. Hmmm. I do things always for a reason. Pulling away from all of this.

Want you to realise you have someone by your side.

Someone cherish you.

Talk about it angers you but i dont care.

Want you to know.

Grr

2011-03-16T17:26:00.001+08:00

What have i done?

Look

2011-03-13T13:37:00.001+08:00

I look forward for your message.

I look forward for your call.

Im like one idiot waiting but it will never happen.

Crushed

2011-03-12T08:31:00.001+08:00

Fuck

2011-03-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

Fuck the love.

I am

2011-03-04T16:34:00.001+08:00

A sinner.

Horny day

2011-03-03T00:14:00.001+08:00

Stop turning me on.

Family

2011-02-28T00:08:00.001+08:00

Tell me what is family?

Tell me.

Why

2011-02-20T19:51:00.001+08:00

Wont you make me feel like im your only girl in the world?

Tears

2011-02-20T01:10:00.001+08:00

Tears running down these cheeks.

Effort

2011-02-20T00:01:00.001+08:00

You're not even close to the word effort.

Happy times

2011-02-18T03:00:00.001+08:00

I know it will never be the same.

I know it will never be alright.

Everybody pretending.

Everybody ignoring.

Everybody kept quiet.

Everybody keep to themselves.

I always envy those who have pridviledges to feel that way.

To feel happy.

2011-02-17T01:58:00.001+08:00

PMS - ING.

realised

2011-02-14T04:31:00.001+08:00

I just realise something
And i don't even like it,
my early months of the blog have my bad memories.
it just trigger those feelings.
Ugh, hatred. Fucking fucked face fucker.

2011-02-14T04:13:00.001+08:00

I usually don't give damn shit on people opinion.
However this time, it really bugged me.
I feel like killing!!

lost.

2010-11-04T01:37:00.002+08:00

i seriously lost you.
i don't know who you are anymore.
where are you?
you re not there anymore.
where are you?

Hello??

2010-08-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hello earth people.
It has been ages since i've updated. I'm super packed with stuff.

I've seen alot nowadays. LIKE ALOT, seriously.
I'm happy to see others happy with their family and stuff.

Tidak baik faizah mengira. Tunggu lahh waktu datang.

I'm upset at the fact that some people don't change at all.
Some fuckers remain the same! Ughh. they digust me.

Izahh ni asyik-asyik masuk, complaint complain complaint.
What to do.?? HAISS!!

crap from you hole!

2010-06-25T05:51:00.001+08:00

You said it is confirm.
Then you said it postpone.

It's all crap coming from your pie hole.
Seriously.

2010-06-21T11:00:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time since i update.
I bet there's spider webs all over.

I've been through hell. It's tiring to keep up.
I've no idea what to update.

All i want is care with action, not care with words.

I'm sick, you care?

Next month is so going to be a good month! :)

2010-03-31T02:06:00.003+08:00

i've scratch my head til it bleeds. it's awesome. i try to think of a plan to kill. it's awesome.
it's good to be lost. it's awesome.

i keep on losing my temper. it's not awesome.

it's good to be alone. it's super awesome.

FUCK!

2010-03-23T05:56:00.002+08:00

They avoid each other. They fight about money. They don't sleep with each other.
What fucking thing will happen next?

FUCK MY FUCKING WORLD!!

2010-03-20T03:16:00.004+08:00

I think this post will just be full of crap.

I had enough of all the madness happen.
i wish i could just fade away just like that.

I know i have this issues. Anger issues. I know i know i know. People say relax and take a deep deep deep breath, i tried. I always try but what the heck. I really hate if people are just trying to be on my nerve by saying, you need to be more patient. FUCK THEM. I know their intention is true but i TRIED OKAY.

Fuck my mind for thinking too much of unnecesary stuff. It just clot my my mind up. Making it more confusing and all. Making me break down even more nowadays.

I'm on my verge to break.

what you want from me?

2010-02-16T02:08:00.001+08:00

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

SO UNCLEAR LOR!!

2010-01-31T20:21:00.002+08:00

This is the second post for this year, I'm so super bored. I can just stare at nothing and do nothing and think nothing. Okay, crap.

I've been suffering for the past few days with awesomely back pain that radiate to the leg. Can't sleep. Oh god, You guys should know how much i love sleeping.

FUTURE IS UNCLEAR. All i can see is blurry vision. blurry indeed. I'mm like a lost sheep. I don't know what I'm going to do for my future. I can't plan because i'm confused. Really, i do.
I can't decide because I'm stuck. I don't know if i want to study or work. Maybe i should just rot at home. Yeahh, maybe i should.

I'm happy for no reasons sometimes. Maybe it's you who make my stomach screams.

happy new year dudes!

2010-01-10T20:57:00.007+08:00

This is the first first post for 2010. So.... HAPPY NEW YEAR! What the heck, it's still feels the same for me. Nothing change. Everything come and go. Everything go up and down.

Everything is fast and slow. SO practically everything is everything. Same old same old.

Every time i press new post, NOTHING comes into mind. Suddenly the mind just shut down. SO this is a random post whereby the post can be stupid, the post can be dumb, the post can be angry, the post can be happy, the post can be all in the world of shit I'm in. Yeahs, all the shit I'm in. Same old same old.

Some said i lost weight. Some said I'm still the same. Some said i look like shit. Some said i gain weight, and i said WHAT THE HECK. I DON'T CARE. But but but some remarks pulls my esteem down SO i decided to shoot him/her down only in my mind where everything seems wonderful. Wonderful indeed.

As usual I'm still unclear about what will unfolds in near future. Oh shit, what will happen to me? What will i do? Yeahs, I'm still lost in this world. Lost indeed. So when you asked me what will i do, i just answer I DON'T KNOW.

2009.. What can i say about that year? Well, it contains a lot of shit and puke face people trying to shit and puke at me. I've lost almost everything in the world for just one fuck face. I care too much til it hurts. I give so much that i can call myself DUMB. I love a fuck face that i fail to notice the shit fuck face've done. You only stand up for just once. Once is never enough. I mask a happy face thought a fuck face is the only fucking one for me. I will never let you fuck my life anymore.

I look like I've move on but i don't. It's still hurt. I just want to give a final slap or anything that can inflict pain on you just to give me that satisfaction and pleasure. SHIIT YOU!!

I feel like throwing plates onto the floor. That satisfaction i need.

After giving so much but in the end it doesn't even matter because i still feel empty inside.

This is shiit feelings. I feel like shooting myself. I feel like escaping and run away so far where people can't find me. I need to find me. I can't rely on myself no more.

Want to run away so badly.

Stupid post.

2009-12-31T06:05:00.000+08:00

I feel like giving up.

2009-12-25T19:35:00.001+08:00

Mark my words.
I don't care if you don't care.
I feel there's no respect between me and you.
I feel that you don't value me at all.

2009-12-25T19:31:00.001+08:00

"Flaws and all" -Beyonce

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you [3x]

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I mean.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
and that's why I love you [3x]

[Repeat Chorus]

2009-12-14T20:04:00.001+08:00

if there's a contest title sleeping queen.
i can be the queen.

2009-12-14T20:02:00.001+08:00

i swear if i have the power to kill.
i will kill!! i will kill all of you!!
two faces bitch!!

2009-12-08T18:09:00.001+08:00

Don't tell me you guys don't kiss.
I'm freaking bored and at the same time feeling relax.
I'm off now. Finding food.

How to kiss with passion.

2009-12-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

2009-12-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

2009-12-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

I stayed home today.
I slept the whole day.
I like it.

LOVE OF MY LIFE.

2009-11-26T20:24:00.006+08:00

First of all, SOUR SWEETS ROCKS!! YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!

It is my company when i'm sleepy. Even it doesn't make any different.

I know it make alot of effort in waking me up.

Secondly, COFFEE!!! YOU ARE MY LOVER. ALWAYS MINE.

Yeahh, this lover of mine always get a kiss from me for almost every morning.

I feel lost and empty when i don't have you in my starting day.

I keep on losing into my wonderland and i need a hard nudge from a friend to stay alive.

You make a different in my life.

Thirdly, MY SOFT SPONGECAKE BED. YOU ARE SIGNIFICANT IN MY LIFE.

Yes you darling have been there for me every single day. Yes you, i love you baby.

You have been there for me in sadness, madness, craziness, hotness, coldness and alot more i can do with you. I want to thank you for loving me and accepting me for the way i am.

I want to be with you every single day. Every morning, when i part from you, i feel lost.

I miss you till i sleep practically everywhere. Outside MLT, train, bus and while standing up.

I miss you that much. You are the love of my life.

2009-11-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

If you don't care. i don't care too.

I Miss You.

2009-11-23T19:38:00.001+08:00

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

I Miss You : Incubus.

2009-11-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

I'm addicted to facebook. laugh out loud.
Who doesn't?

harmony? your bloody head!

2009-11-19T17:11:00.004+08:00

I'm bored lazy. All that related to sloth.
I'm feeling that.

I just don't know how to react on certain things.
I just don't know what to say anymore.
I just don't know how to feel.

I'm cruel at times, evil too. Spare me, that's the way i am.

I think THIS is unfair.
Look around you, what you see the most?
Look around you, what you hear the most?
Look around you, how you feel about THIS?
People says life is unfair.
I know it's unfair.
THIS is too obvious.
It's just not fair anymore.

I'm furious but what can i do?

NOTHING.
Nothing can change THIS.

2009-11-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

Just wait and see.
I'll die because of exhaustion.
yes, i will.

2009-11-09T19:21:00.001+08:00

There's too much insecurities.
I just don't know how to face them when the time come.

2009-11-06T14:40:00.001+08:00

Firstly, happy birthday to dear Yong-Yong. :)

I've fallen deeper and i like it. :)

2009-10-28T18:31:00.002+08:00

I just have no mood in almost everything i do.
A lot of assignment. I wish i can just kill myself without feeling the pain.
I just lost interest to almost everything.

I just don't get it. Why the hell it happened to me?
What did i do? I can't picture myself with someone ignoring me.
It'll be emotional for me.
I should have just shut my pie hole and pretend nothing happen.
God, help me.

I sleep almost every time in train. To and fro.
I sleep like a pig. With all the sudden jerk. Mouth open. Almost miss my station.
Yes, that bad til other passenger actually can laugh.
Yeah right, I'm a clown to you guys.

SOMETIMES

2009-10-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

I FEEL THAT YOU DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ME AT ALL.

current addiction.

2009-10-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

clumsy

2009-10-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

I know, i know. People say i'm clumsy.
Clumsy is my name. What to do.

Serious, i've fallen hard.
Fallen hard.
I think i'm in love.
No no, i am in love.
In love with him. I think so.

I don't know. I just blush whenever i'm with him.
I just love when he kisses me on the forehead.
I feel blessed. Blessed whenever i'm with him.

Is that?? What you call love??

2009-10-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

I'm stress.

"Hush Hush"

2009-10-11T12:04:00.000+08:00

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you was strong enough, you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself
I don't know why you think you gotta hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me and listen to me
Because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because
I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurt
I never needed you to be there every day

I'm sorry for the way I let go
On everything I wanted when you came along
But I ain't never beatin', broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

insecure.

2009-10-08T14:30:00.002+08:00

I feel insecure.
I don't know why.
Even how much you said that.
I still feel insecure.

2009-10-08T13:24:00.001+08:00

smokes smokes smokes smokes smokes.

woo~~

2009-10-08T13:08:00.001+08:00

I've watched phobia 2
and and and i hugged him. :p

knowing

2009-10-05T15:32:00.003+08:00

Realise something.
Jealousy was never in my dictionary.
Jealousy has become a part of me after one incident.
It follow me all the way til now.

That incident has shown me that i don't wish to lose him.
Jealousy made me angry.
Flaming in fire. Furious.
I push him away. Shut him out.

In the end i lost him. Forever.

JPAs

2009-10-01T14:39:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Hari Raya with the JPAs. It was awesome. Tiring too. From west to East.

moving on

2009-09-08T21:47:00.001+08:00

I will move on.
I have to move on.

I have move on.

i won't

2009-09-01T07:28:00.001+08:00

I won't look back in anger.

SINCE

2009-08-29T05:58:00.001+08:00

Since you said you tired of holding on.
Since you doubt my feelings.
Since you said you feel that i did not clap hands with you.
Since every fight you said "leave me".

You threatened me with those actions and talks.
How do i feel? Maybe for you i feel nothing.

Just nothing.

However i do have feelings, do you ever thought of that?

2009-08-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

You did saw me.
You ignore me.

2009-08-13T20:17:00.001+08:00

I have grown thinner.
I have grown eye bag on my face.
I becoming more sick.

A good combination.

2009-08-10T17:13:00.000+08:00

It's already over.

2009-08-06T10:51:00.001+08:00

i really can't believe that she said to mother. was abit furious. Take a look at you now. You are still young. Oh god. What kind of decision is that?

I thought you are strong.
I thought you can be better than this.
You are running away again.
I can't believe this.
What so good about them that you run to them.
What so good??

I have enough of this madness.
FFFFFFFF!!!!

2009-07-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

All i can see is just a empty bed.

2009-07-31T00:31:00.001+08:00

My mind is spinning. Unable to stop this floatiness.
My energy is drained. Need to sleep.

2009-07-25T13:37:00.002+08:00

Are you happy that she is out from the house?
Are you happy that she choose them instead of us?
Are you happy that you no need to waste your time yelling at her?

How can you pretend nothing happen?
How can you pretend that there's nothing wrong at all?

What is this madness?
What is this shit?

Why is this happening?
Can you think for a while because of you, she go to them?
Can you believe in her?
Can you stop accusing her?

I can't do anything.

2009-07-16T18:18:00.000+08:00

2009-07-14T18:16:00.002+08:00

I know i may sound like a lunatic. I have been stalking somebody blog since ancient.
I pluck out my courage just to tag on the owner and owner replied. I'm happy.
And no, it is just my eye candy.

List on what i can do.

2009-07-14T03:08:00.006+08:00

Unsure what to do for the days that i'm going to be home.

Do house chores.
Surfing the net til your eyes get tired or maybe increased eye degree.
Doing quiz in Facebook. Playing Games in Facebook.
Playing solitare til i feel sleepy.
Watch my cat having their own nightmare. Meowing while sleeping.
Sleep like there's nobody care.
Craving for food after watching some advertisement.
Watching videos from youtube when my television fail me.
Sleep with my cat.
Disturb my baby by texting and miss call him.
Singing out loud at home only when there's nobody.
Turn on loud my radio and dance like nobody cares.
Read random novels. Read Harry Porter.
Upload some random songs.
Online on MSN and chat with friends or random people.
Get some random pictures on net and attempt to draw(since o, stop drawing)
Thinking on how to solve some problems.
Watch MTV.
Research on 2 mental illnesses.
Type out my journals based on my days at IMH.
Write down random thoughts on paper.

It's not that bad staying at home for a week however the bored part is looking at others who can go out. I've been craving for alot alot alot of food. I want to eat!!! Infact i'm hungry right now.

I WANT TO EAT!!!!! I WANT TO EAT!!!!! I MISS SCHOOL'S CHICKEN NOODLE. Damn it! I make myself salivate.

Some Random Thoughts.

2009-07-12T16:19:00.006+08:00

Staying at home is not that bad. I can do alot of stuff.
Like cleaning up my room. Rearrange my books in the shelf, totally messy.
Can think about alot of stuff while doing it.

Recently don't know why my stomach is abit off. Keep on going to the restroom.
It seems that my second favourite place is the restroom.

I don't know why she ignoring us. She even block my best friend in MSN.
There must be a logic rationale on why she did this. Maybe it's just her ego.
I can't any how give a reason. Well let's see where this bring us to.

2009-07-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

Let's hope it is negative and everything back to normal.

2009-07-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

There's an outbreak and
here i am sleeping.

2009-07-05T01:30:00.004+08:00

Nothing make sense anymore. People keep on blaming each other.
Talking behind each other back. The criticism. I hate it.

People are so addicted to do all the stupid things and i'm one of them.
I regret.

I've been doing so many unhealthy things. No running.
Alot of junk food and more sleep.
I regret.

Attachment is drawing near every minute. Not looking forward for it.
Sometimes i think that i am a failure.
Sometimes i think that the future for me are not so bright.
I am unsure about myself and the things i do and done.
I regret.

I want to run away from here
and never want to stop.

2009-07-02T01:47:00.001+08:00

2009-07-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

I can't face the same music over and over again.
I can't let it come smack right on my face.
I hate this moments.
I hate the rows we had and have.

2009-06-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

2009-06-26T02:57:00.002+08:00

I'm glad that we met up.
I'm glad that we talked about it.
I'm glad that we are okay now.
I'm glad that we sorted everything.

I love you and I miss you so much.
I really mean it.
Yes, i do Farah.

BBQ AT PASIR RIS!

2009-06-25T04:46:00.013+08:00

22 June 2009, Monday

With good food and company, what can go wrong? I love my mates! Everybody was awesome.

Food was delicious. Everything is nice BUT not the people beside us. Miss you guys.

outing with family.

2009-06-25T04:28:00.005+08:00

21 June 2009, Sunday

Out with my favourite people on earth. Went to bugis with adiks and mother.

I love them! Adiks want to buy stuff. Each of them get one except for me.

I feel guilty knowing that mother willingly buying for you stuff regardless the price!

So yes, i choose not to let mother buy for me anything.

A proper update

2009-06-19T02:26:00.009+08:00

Wednesday. 17 June 2009
Beach road!!

After our mask fitting, Amirah, Faidila, Ayun and me went to Beach road to fill our stomach.
And i'm the only one with PE SHIRT. We have Nasi Ayam Penyet. Nice.
After indulge the food, Faidila wants to have Tulangs. Haha, she keep on saying that she wants it.
So yeahh, we have tulangs. It was heavenly nice. Faidila wanted to try the somsom. Somsom is the meat in the bone. It's like a dare to her. Very geli eh? HAHA. Like caterpillar, i said.
We ate til the colourings stain our fingers. Haha, Like just married gitu.

After the meal, Faidila off to work, and left the three of us walk to bugis. Amirah wants to go home.
Ayun and me walk around in Town. Window shopping. Regret because got sales but with no cash.
Funny i know. Around 6 pm, we wanted to go home. Ayun didn't get to buy her Frappe. Other day k dear?

We should have a proper outing, GIRLS.
Reached home and off to Bugis again with my sister.

Sister outing!!

Sister and me went out to Bugis at about 8pm.
Once we reached Bugis, we haunt for food. Like i said i was broke so so so my sister treat me.
I feel guilty. Ate at Tong Seng. There's this stupid guy trying to get my sister attention.
And i don't like it at all. Not even one bit. What to do, just ignore.
If i was wearing jeans and Ts, i will definitely bite his head off.
After dinner, walk in Bugis street. Just window shopping. Nice clothes, bags But no cash!!
FED UP FED UP. GOT SALES BUT NO MONEY.

After walk around, we chill and took pictures. Vain we are. Then off to our journey to City Hall by foot. We talked and laughed. It has been a long time since we have sisters outing.
And i love it BEBEH!! Reached home abt 12mn.

I hate all the nagging and criticism you slap to my sister. DON'T ACCUSE BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO EVIDENCE! I hate when people tend to talk rubbish and has no sense when you are angry or trying to make them realise.
It's not the way. You have a brain, use it well, parents.

2009-06-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

Know what. I'm broke.