i dont know what to update by the time i press new post.DAMN IT!
nevermind.well.i do some thinkin just now at the garden infront of my house.
while doin something.it just trigger my mind.
what will become me in the future.
haha,i know this seems so negative.such thoughts run into my mind.

what if i cant be a nurse or a paramedic?
why must i hate Nadiah to the core?
why can't i this and that.see!!NEGATIVE right?
i dont know lahh.hmm.

next week is examination.
i wish myself luck.gonna study and revise my ass off.
:)

izan went home for home leave.hehe.

i love her.

:)

Decode

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight all the time
No care to ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
Well I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own ("I'm screaming I love you so")
On my own (My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
Well I use to know you so well, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools of ourselves

Yeah
How did we get here?
Well I use to know you so well, yeah yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

i love them

well today quite suck.seriously.im piss of with almost everybody which is not healthy.

i really try not to be angry or WHAT.to my closest friend.

i'm so sorry that what ive tried is not the best.

i keep on hurtin people.it make me think that maybe by the end of my course,

maybe they will hate me to the EARTH core.

however how much i hurt them,i apologize,thats a good thing right?

for those who knew me since primay os secondary,you know how i behave.(i guess)

i hope so.i really need to manage this anger of mine.

i hope you accept me the i am.

those years were bitter.i apologize that you cant accept the way i am.

i apologise.im not perfect.

for what had made me in the past.thats who i am in the present.

still trying not to be a bad person.

im trying.

and thanks baby for still loving me.

what ive done.
forgive me will you?

it doesnt make any different if im there.

baby,i'm yours

RUHAIZAT KU!!

HAPPY belated 8TH MONTHSARY!!

i didnt expect anything actually.

just you by my side,it's enough.

:)baby,i love you.

on 13 november 2008.

RANDOM

my crazy friends.

aishah & ernie

my dude friend,azizi.

rock on.

my love

my aishah!

damn!get cut off!

i love you,baby.

wuuuhhh..

every body pose!woohoo!!

high element,bebeh!

rev&izahh

enjoyin the sun.

sisters.

test is coming,muggin for test.
behavioural science!clinical nursing!
woohoo!!wish me luck!!
finish up project too.
ive been trying to avoid somebody.am i bad to do so?
he make me angry,serious angry.FURIOUS infact.
i want to make a book of complain.
it seems everyday i keep complaining about stuff.
haha!COMPLAIN QUEEN!

it was total crap!

im addicted to "in bloom"


baby i need you.
i love you baby.

today there's this high element.haha.was scared to death.
haha.fear fear fear!
cried before cliimbing up!but there's friend actually cheer me up.
feets were wobbly like jelly when up hanging holding and WHINING.
haha.faidila was there to cheer on when she actually hanging on the other side.
my head itch like crazy!HELP!
i feel satisfied after finshin the high element,WOOHOO!!

yeah man.test is coming so soon.1.2 is ending soon.DAMN.so fast.
tmr minister of education come to class.dont know why we have to be so so special!
we are in nursing course too.we are not arrogant.we didnt make the publicity.
dont you guys think that the teachers is boasting abt us??
we are not perfect too.we are just like you!only with a dual cert.
you guys can join us,you knw?HAILAMAK!

tmr going to sentosa to do some research on history.
snap some pictures and relax at the same time,i suppose?
not sure.i bought new stuff.ive been spendin money like water.i dont like it.
damn.

its been a week since i meet ruhaizat baby.
every message is like a sad one.

i miss you baby.
i love you baby.
dont think negative,will you.
i'll be yours in your thoughts.
hushhush,dont cry my baby.
i will love you endlessly.
just think of me and positive thoughts.
you will be safe in my heart.

nama mu telah tercatat di sudut hatiku.

updating

friday 31 october
went out with sayang after school.
from school to home to out again!
very tired.btw we fight again.
stupid i know.

saturday 1 november
meet my group member at bugis at 10.
i reached first.:)
the trip is about history on places,shoppin mall that are nearest from the historic places and also food places.
:)
well,lazy lazy to upload pictures.
will upload it on next post kayys.:)

btw,my computer is better now!haha
good comp!!

sayang.you are a gift in my fife.
i loove you.