and if I'm free.ill be out with the people in the pictures.

it has been a loongg time since i enjoy myself.

alrights.yesterday.theres dinner reunion.

haha.STEAMBOAT!!cool cool.

just ate small amount of food.didn't feel like eating.

I KNOW I KNOW,that doesn't sound like iizahh.

go to go!wash up,later WORK!

tmr also work!!HAHAH.

I'M BACK!!

a vain picture.
haha!okay.i have nothing to do else but to take picture of myself.
I'm so tired.
I'm not looking forward for the long weekends.
loong weekends equal to WORK!
haha.dragging my legs and heart to work is equal to LAZY!!

can't wait for later as my adik,faizan will be home til Monday.
yeah,can't wait.WOOHOO!!

what the hell.have to complete my case by Sunday at least.
so that i will not be occupy with it after the loong weekends.ALRIGHTS!!
my goal must be complete.
BTW the case i took have the same name as my mother,cool lahh sehh.
it's like having my mother as my patient and care for her.
E.G;treatment and everything.
STRESSFUL!!with all the AWESOME information.
i have to google some of it to find out something.alrights.stressful weekends.



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i cant wait to be with them again.alrights,
i know some of them are going to polytechnic.
HELL!I'M GOING TO MISS YOU GUYS.
i hope you all have wonderful future ahead.
well it's doesn't make a different to me,
because i am still last in class.



I MISS THIS BEAUTIFUL ANGEL WITH NO WINGS!!
okay,crappyNess comes.
i miss having tea and long talks with you.
yes i miss that.


I'm so tired this days that i want to sleep for one week!!
I'm so tired this days that i want to sleep for one week!!
I'm so tired this days that i want to sleep for one week!!
I'm so tired this days that i want to sleep for one week!!
I'm so tired this days that i want to sleep for one week!!


I'm so stress that i want to scratch my head till it bleeds!!!!
I'm so stress that i want to scratch my head till it bleeds!!!!
I'm so stress that i want to scratch my head till it bleeds!!!!
I'm so stress that i want to scratch my head till it bleeds!!!!
I'm so stress that i want to scratch my head till it bleeds!!!!

rocky baby chucky orange. and plus i'm CRAZY!

baby orange,
the cute little creature

alrights.pictures of a cute kitten.JYEAH!

haha.cute little creature, orange peed on my bed just now.

i was like!!!man, i cant have my early sleep!!haha.

and zira dear,cute kan!?!?!haha.

i want to name the kitten baby orange but kan family members got alot of name lahh sehh.

so confusing.

btw zira,the title is the combination of all the names.haha.

i create it.muahaha, however they dont agree with it.ya whatever.

now my cute baby.

alrights.its been a very long time since i met up with baby.

JUST NOW!!MET UP!!woohoo.alrights.

im crazy.we ate at banquet greenridge.

afterward he off to work.sekejap eh kita jumpa?

nvm baby.even the we never meet up that often, i see you in my dreams.

okay iizahh,mushyNess crap!

i miss you sexy BUTT!!woohoo!

and finally,

iizahh in crappyNess

okayy. i think i look nice,goblet style.LET'S PUKE!

okay.it's a random picture.

i have no mood this days.more like having mood swings.

one minute im okay. another minute im not.woots.crazy kan aku?

im not sure why i have this RANDOM mood swings.i just need to have patience.

and plus, after some incident at work,ive been having fears.damnit.

seriously.i dont know why.

YOU SEE,i dont know almost everything that happened to me.

im so clueless.okay random again.

alrights,i miss farah nabilah.i miss her ALOT.

ive no guts to tell her even in message.

i think i will go silent like some dumbass when i stumble onto/into(which one correct?) her.

OKAY!! IIZAHH NEED TO STOP HER CRAPPYnESSnESS.

i love you ruhaizat baby.

hatiku semacam je lahh.tidak tahu mengapa.
berat betul hatiku.

seriously I'm not looking forward for tmr.
tmr is the day my sister going back
and I'm working from seven til five.
damn it.

my heart is so heavy.
aku ni ehh asyik-asyik mengeluh.
I've read one brochure on stress.
and yeah,this is stress.
work stress is one of it.
I'm reluctant to go to work tmr.

I'm thinking twice on working.
serious.i got my other job to back up.

ya tuhan.tolonglahh aku.
tenang kan hatiku ini.

a kitten,a cat.

my parent just brought a cute orangey kitten home.
cool.so cute,they found the kitten in a drain.injured.
nameless.we still decide what to name the cute smalley orangeyness kitten.
weee.

current addiction

"Lithium"

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with you.
I'm gonna let it go.

faith dragging across the room.

with all the yelling, shouting and slamming of doors.
how could you sleep?just have to pretend.
silent comes after the row.
then theres a slamming of the house gate.
somebody leave the house.
i woke up and find mother was fakely smiling at me.
pretending everything was alright.
but i knew it was the opposite.
and i cant see this anymore.

Mitch Albom

All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped.
Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of itshandlers.
Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into
jagged little pieces, beyond repair.

negativity

when i choose certain things or decision.
i am satisfied and content with it.
and when somebody ask something about the outcome.
i have doubts with my decision. ohgod.
now i asking myself.
what will become of me in the future to come?
see,stupid negative things stuck in my head.
stupid stupid train of thoughts.

shagged shagged.

first day of posting.

yeahh mann.excited for tmr to come.
I've goals for tmr and i will do it.
shagged,off to sleep soon and wake up to find food.
and sleep again.
tmr afternoon shift.tralalaaa.

i miss you "SEXY BUTT!!"

my phone is failing me.
after work,went to vivo to meet family.adk izan is there.
with my swensen's uniform.
drink only milk tea while waiting for them to eat.

bought myself a pair of ear ring.nice very nice.
went home via bus.
sit for very long.
result into having a massive headache and feeling nauseated all the way home.
nice feeling.ugghh.

i want to puke now.damn it!

tmr jogging.yes.seriously!with adiks and ruhaizat.Insya-Allah.
after this post, i want to watch television and relax.
hee.tralalalaaa.

tell me.

when will meet again?

because i miss you.

massive photos of 2008.

picture ended.start reading.

well. sorry for the massive photos of 2008.randomness.

2008 is a great year and also the opposite.

this year also have taught me to be more patience.

i love this beautiful angel.yes.he is beautiful.

despite the "his dorkiness,his everything" that can piss me off or make me laugh.

yeah baby.i love you.

I've met great bunch of friend.

work and school.

i love them loads.miss them alots!

i dont want to but im sorry.

i cant wait to be with faizan baby again.

i miss you baby.haha.sleep and hear you snore again.

to have you around really complete me.

to have your cheerful and never ending high pitch voice,

really cheer me up.

thanks adik.

i cant help to thanks friends/love ones who endure with me,

walk with me.listen to me.listen with me.do anything together.

and especially tolerate my shit.

thanks my love.thanks.i appreciate you guys alot.

haha.okay.this post is so dreading long.i know.

i know by this second you are sleepy.haha.

maybe you have skip the post.

nevertheless,this is to express my gratitude and feelings.

and people.remember even if i dont text or call or chat or meet up.

you are always in my heart.seriously.dont ever judge me.