it's hard to be hard like stone.
it's hard to pretend every time.
it's hard to put on a smile.
it's hard to pretend not miss you anymore.
it's even hard to ignore.
I'm detaching some part of myself.
I'm learning to let go.
I'm letting it go now.
the part i hated the most.
the part i keep on saying"i hate you,i will never regard you as my friend!"
however the scar is still there.
I'm learning to let go.
the pain i held in me.
alrights.I'm super uper per er r TIRED IRED RED ED D.!!!will be at SIMS tomorrow.
not looking forward for it.seriously I'm not.
my little brother have grow so tall.tall like beanstalk.have to look up and suffer of neck pain.
I'm jealous, i want to be tall! haha, I'm complaining. i should not do this.
i should appreciate.
the part i find it's hard to accept is, my little chubby brother is gone.
he is the one who i like to bully. the one i always bring for RAYA.
even though he make me angry i still brought him along.
i love him that's why.time goes by, i learn to treasure my family.
MY FAMILY always come first.even i lost all my friend.
i have my family there.
I'm tired of everything got to do with decision.
ikut rasa hati ku lepaskan semua.
i'm tired to decide.
and baby, ruhaizat, i love you.