All i can see is just a empty bed.

My mind is spinning. Unable to stop this floatiness.
My energy is drained. Need to sleep.

Are you happy that she is out from the house?
Are you happy that she choose them instead of us?
Are you happy that you no need to waste your time yelling at her?

How can you pretend nothing happen?
How can you pretend that there's nothing wrong at all?

What is this madness?
What is this shit?

Why is this happening?
Can you think for a while because of you, she go to them?
Can you believe in her?
Can you stop accusing her?

I can't do anything.

I know i may sound like a lunatic. I have been stalking somebody blog since ancient.
I pluck out my courage just to tag on the owner and owner replied. I'm happy.
And no, it is just my eye candy.

List on what i can do.

Unsure what to do for the days that i'm going to be home.

1. Do house chores.
2. Surfing the net til your eyes get tired or maybe increased eye degree.
3. Doing quiz in Facebook. Playing Games in Facebook.
4. Playing solitare til i feel sleepy.
5. Watch my cat having their own nightmare. Meowing while sleeping.
6. Sleep like there's nobody care.
7. Craving for food after watching some advertisement.
8. Watching videos from youtube when my television fail me.
9. Sleep with my cat.
10. Disturb my baby by texting and miss call him.
11. Singing out loud at home only when there's nobody.
12. Turn on loud my radio and dance like nobody cares.
13. Read random novels. Read Harry Porter.
14. Upload some random songs.
15. Online on MSN and chat with friends or random people.
16. Get some random pictures on net and attempt to draw(since o, stop drawing)
17. Thinking on how to solve some problems.
18. Watch MTV.
19. Research on 2 mental illnesses.
20. Type out my journals based on my days at IMH.
21. Write down random thoughts on paper.

It's not that bad staying at home for a week however the bored part is looking at others who can go out. I've been craving for alot alot alot of food. I want to eat!!! Infact i'm hungry right now.

I WANT TO EAT!!!!! I WANT TO EAT!!!!! I MISS SCHOOL'S CHICKEN NOODLE. Damn it! I make myself salivate.

Some Random Thoughts.

Staying at home is not that bad. I can do alot of stuff.
Like cleaning up my room. Rearrange my books in the shelf, totally messy.
Can think about alot of stuff while doing it.

Recently don't know why my stomach is abit off. Keep on going to the restroom.
It seems that my second favourite place is the restroom.

I don't know why she ignoring us. She even block my best friend in MSN.
There must be a logic rationale on why she did this. Maybe it's just her ego.
I can't any how give a reason. Well let's see where this bring us to.

Let's hope it is negative and everything back to normal.

There's an outbreak and
here i am sleeping.

Nothing make sense anymore. People keep on blaming each other.
Talking behind each other back. The criticism. I hate it.

People are so addicted to do all the stupid things and i'm one of them.
I regret.

I've been doing so many unhealthy things. No running.
Alot of junk food and more sleep.
I regret.

Attachment is drawing near every minute. Not looking forward for it.
Sometimes i think that i am a failure.
Sometimes i think that the future for me are not so bright.
I am unsure about myself and the things i do and done.
I regret.

I want to run away from here
and never want to stop.

I can't face the same music over and over again.
I can't let it come smack right on my face.
I hate this moments.
I hate the rows we had and have.