imagine how hurt it is.

I want you to visualise.

you were sleeping with someone you love. Dear to you.
side by side. Holding hands.
when you shift to your side, someone you love hug you from behind. Kiss your head.
you feel protected. You feel like you're the little girl to the someone you love.

It leads to some thing. You would do to the someone you love.
You kissed someone you love and whisper "i love you".
someone you love whisper it back.

everything ends. You lay down beside someone you love.
Listen to the breathing. It was music to your ears. You were about to sleep.

Someone you loved said he was not ready for a relationship.
That you deserve better. It was his mistake to begin all this.

You started to cry. He cried with you.

At the end, he left you.

It hurts.

perhaps

Perhaps I don't give much to show.
perhaps I don't say much to know.
perhaps I don't show much for affections.

I know one day you will leave me.

It's not I want to do this.
taking a step for me is painful.
It's the only truth.

evanescence

"My Heart Is Broken"

I will wander 'til the end of time, torn away from you.

I pulled away to face the pain.
I close my eyes and drift away.
Over the fear that I will never find
A way to heal my soul.
And I will wander 'til the end of time
Torn away from you.

My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow's hold
(Over my heart).

I can't go on living this way
But I can't go back the way I came
Chained to this fear that I will never find
A way to heal my soul
And I will wander 'til the end of time
Half alive without you

My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us

Change - open your eyes to the light
I denied it all so long, oh so long
Say goodbye, goodbye

My heart is broken
Release me, I can't hold on
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow's hold

You and that smile. :/