I've made you angry,didn't i?

In my life, i didn't make any successful relationship, friendship or whatsoever.I end up losing them.How much i try to hold on. It didn't work. I'm too coward or maybe a bitch.
I'm so lost. i lose my close friend.
I'm not surprise if i lose you, because i know i lose everything even how much i treasure them.

I lose too much, i feel like a loser now.Oh god.

CHILL OUT.

I need to chill out. Enjoy the video.

i can't do anything

Can you see your love ones cry infront of you, suffered in the hands of fuckers?
I'm a overprotective sister that cannot do anything.
The most i can do is blow my top off but they will do nothing to change anything.
Even you have the power to do things or decide, don't abuse it.
In times you people will suffer the same fate.
Assholes fucking fucked fuckers.

My holiday? What can i describe about it? Well, nothing happening happen.
Just work and sit at home and relax. Or maybe family bonding.

It's ridiculous, very ridiculous to ask question which can make a person mad.
Seriously. If a person are not free. You can't force.

I'm not comparing myself with people, i hate doing that. If they can provide the service you want, it's their own capabilities. Oh shit this madness. Really shit this and their fucking fucked minds.

Don't yell if you want the answer, ASK nicely. THEN I WILL ANSWER NICELY TOO.

What i want from this deserving holiday is, outing and avoid having CHEST PAIN.
RELAX like i never had in one whole day.
It's pretty good enough i provide my service because i still want to.

Thanks for making me feel like a QUITTER.

Would you give up your vengeance against someone you hate if it meant
saving someone you love?

Change Of Heart-Jodi Picoult

loving this flower.

The reason why i still keep the flower is i love everything you gave me.

the most i treasure is your love.

wo ai ni.

Mother birthday.

23march2009,Monday

Early on the day, met up with baby. Went for a movie, catch the movie "race to the witch mountain".

The show was awesome. It let me think of certain stuff, if there's really another planet with beings there. Alrights, skip this part. Went for dinner with baby. Collect cake for mother.

Baby, it's okay that you can't spend all the things i want. Just you can make my day.

Mother birthday, it was awesome to see mother face. Really shocked with the BIG O on her face.

Initially the plan was to wait for mother and father to reached home, then surprised with baby and adk syam.

BUT BUT, father pun sekaki lahh!! YEAH, with his the cooperation, we get to know when they coming home from makan place.

NI lahh mother, pity baby for waiting for them to arrive home. SO late lahh. Nak makan at Al-Azhar.

BTW nasib adk Syam pun sekaki. See mother shocked make us happy lahh.

Heard her calling junior from outside, i was like"I'm so going to like her face expression"

with the candle lit and lights off and and and also when the door open, we sing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

Look at her making her wish and blowing the lit candle. Make me content. yeahhness.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Thanks baby and adk syam and father too.

And and and, sorry baby to make you to go home late.Thousands apologies.

Happy Birthday mama!!

i love you!!

you are so going to enjoy your birthday!!

Happy Birthday TO Hayati.

yes baby you. hope you have a good birthday.

i miss you loads!!

holiday has finally started. i've cut my hair.
went to gym for about 4 hours. long right?

i want to rest. i just can't get enough rest,hurhur.
i've yet to enrol myself to licence. waiting for the free day.

alright, i miss my beauty sleep.
good night people.

still feeling sick. i hate this because i can't eat whatever i like currently.
baby gave me a yellow flower and it's still alive.
i don't know what came across his mind to buy me one flower.

4/7, you guys remember for valentine in school 2007.
FFFF i forgot his name, gave us the flower.

yes, baby gave me that flower. :)

update update!!

14march2009,Saturday

Alrights!! Know what? We went for gym again and i think this going to be a routine.

Cool cool cool. This time, it's a whole family that went to gym.

Run baby run. Cycle baby cycle. Weight baby weight.

Cute lahh to see whole family in gym. I think we are the first to do that?

Tell me, did any one of you do this?

After after AFTER went for gym.

We went to Lucky Plaza for AYAM PENYET to celebrate my birthday.

This is super nice. I love to eat there.

Especially the GADO-GADO!! Favourite!!!!!!!

After the beautiful dinner, went for short shopping and long window shopping. Get it?

Went toilet at Hyatt Hotel. Mother used to work there.

Cold lahh sehh and super clean.

The picture below, i don't know why i like it.

Peaceful. you can hear every conversation.

I'm very sure you can even hear pin drop.

We, a family proceed to far east plaza for dessert.

As I'm still sick and my throat are saying no!!!

I didn't ate any dessert. Yes, how much i love it but i can't.

We went home after this. I had a great time.

It's a nice present to have, spending time with someone you love most.

Your own family.

Everybody is a daddy and mommy girl and I'm proud to say that.

I want to thanks to those who wish me.

Advance, on that day and belated.

You are appreciated.

You make my day, guys.

thank you.

remenissions

A good friend once told me we are memory
Without them we equal nothing
And all I can see is the place I wanna be
Timeless my life was so free
Leaves at my feet, blown to the ground
their echoes are reaching my ears
Nights coming fast, suns going down - confused
I don't know the answers but neither do you

HAPPY HAPPY!!

13 march 2009,Friday

Happy birthday to me.

Happy 12 months to us. :)

updating

9th March 2009,Monday

Initially we planned to go for movie marathon.

However i want to walk walk!!

We watched the movie PUSH. It was awesome.

Before the movie ate KFC!! Long time since i ate there.Woohoo!!

After the movie, we walk to far east.

Baby bought for me a pair of shoe that I've been eyeing since 12 February 2009.

I thought the shoe were gone by then, however it's still there.

It must have heard me calling for it.Haha.

Thanks baby. I love it. I love you.

I can feel it as my throat is itching and i keep on sneezing.

10 march 2009,Tuesday

Alrights,school has started. Different class have different days off in a week.

Pretty stressful as we have to learn more more!!

More about the diseases.

Phase test is coming, Tuesday,17 march 2009 to be exact.

Wow. So the the the Early lahh sehh!!

But but but, i have the steps in mind. Need more reading and I'm ready.

Insyaallah, I'll pass.

After school, adik izan want me to take her hand phone from her friend.

Wahhlauu, at that point of time, i was like WHAT!!SERIOUS KER??

Nvm, just take. after taking, met up with solihin, the best buddy.

To eat and buy things for myself. Bought a BIG BIG BIG basket.

For all the teddys sit in. :):)

Thanks solihin thanks.

today is the official day.I'm sick and i hate it.

sputum thickened and sore throat getting worse.I'm pure rocker by voice.

i need suctioning.

And guess what?

My lecturer is Mdm T** from now til my graduation.

Cool cool. All i can say grooming, punctuality and attitude must be top.

If not.wowow. I don't know what happen next.

fun teacher OVERALL. :)

11 march 2009,Wednesday

Happy happy birthday to Ruzaini!!

You are 2 days older than me.

page 128

"Do the kinds of things that come from the heart.
When you do, you won't be longing for somebody else's things.
On the contrary, you'll be overwhelmed with what comes back."

Tuesday With Morrie-Mitch Albom

everything has end.begin a happy ending.

yes!finally, attachment has ended!woohoo!
no more heart pain and heart ache.it's such a painful thing to go through.
Alhamdullilah,i make it through this far.
because i almost give up.

i almost give up in secondary.
i almost give up in education.
i almost give up in everything.
now, i give up in something/someone.
I GIVE UP.

I'm tired of trying.I'm tired of waiting.
more important is my family.
it's all i have.

and JYEAHH!!!
today was fun fun fun!!went out with daddy and mama.
went to gym!!swimming!!then MY FAVOURITE PART,eat eat!!!
WOOHOO!!

semangat eh kami?semangat gila.
i like it.should do this more often.yeahh.

i love family moments.

on the 4 march!
it was super awesome.after morning shift, went for shower.
EAT AND WATCH SLUM DOG MILLIONAIRE!!
woohoo.it means i watch it for the second time.
yes, second time. i love the movie. i feel like watching it again.

"AMITA BACHAN!!!!"
okayy, i don't have any idea how to spell his name.

and JYEAHH, tmr!!last!!!day!!!at!!!ward!!!
WOHOHOHOHHHOOO!!!

i don't look forward for next week.
i don't look forward for everything.

now, it's raining heavily.nice nice to sleep.yeahs.
enjoy your night.

nights peoples.

I'M GIVING UP ON ALOT OF THINGS.

EVEN YOU.

money, power or love?

"Money is not substitute for tenderness, and power is not a
substitute for tenderness.
I can tell you, as I'm sitting here dying, when you need most it, neither
money nor power will give you the feeling you're looking for, no matter how much
of them you have."

Tuesday With Morrie-Mitch Albom

i love this part.

"Because" Morrie continued, "Most of us all walk around as if we're
sleepwalking.
We really don't experience the world fully , because we're half asleep,
doing things we automatically think we have to do."

And facing death changes all that?

"Oh, yes. you strip away all that stuff and you focus on the essentials.
when you realize you are going to die, you see everything much
differently."

He sighed. "Learn how to die, and you learn how to live."

Tuesday With Morrie-Mitch Albom

saturday,28022009

i was working on this very day.morning shift.

after work went home then out again!!

HAD dinner at Pasta Mania.:)

advance daddy birthday gathering.enjoyable day.

with whole family.the restaurant was packed with people.

yeahh mann.hahaha.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

slumdog millionaire

Slumdog Millionaire was awesome.really was.worth the money.watch it with baby on thursday.

thanks baby for spending time with me.who haven't catch show, you must catch it!!

out of 10.i give 10 credits!! woohoo!!!

synopsis
Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai, is about to experience the biggest day of his life.

With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20-million rupees on India's "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating; how could a street kid know so much? Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost.

Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions. Intrigued by Jamal's story, the jaded police inspector begins to wonder what a young man with no apparent desire for riches is really doing on this game show?

When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the inspector and 60 million viewers are about to find out.