SO UNCLEAR LOR!!

This is the second post for this year, I'm so super bored. I can just stare at nothing and do nothing and think nothing. Okay, crap.

I've been suffering for the past few days with awesomely back pain that radiate to the leg. Can't sleep. Oh god, You guys should know how much i love sleeping.

FUTURE IS UNCLEAR. All i can see is blurry vision. blurry indeed. I'mm like a lost sheep. I don't know what I'm going to do for my future. I can't plan because i'm confused. Really, i do.
I can't decide because I'm stuck. I don't know if i want to study or work. Maybe i should just rot at home. Yeahh, maybe i should.

I'm happy for no reasons sometimes. Maybe it's you who make my stomach screams.

happy new year dudes!

This is the first first post for 2010. So.... HAPPY NEW YEAR! What the heck, it's still feels the same for me. Nothing change. Everything come and go. Everything go up and down.

Everything is fast and slow. SO practically everything is everything. Same old same old.

Every time i press new post, NOTHING comes into mind. Suddenly the mind just shut down. SO this is a random post whereby the post can be stupid, the post can be dumb, the post can be angry, the post can be happy, the post can be all in the world of shit I'm in. Yeahs, all the shit I'm in. Same old same old.

Some said i lost weight. Some said I'm still the same. Some said i look like shit. Some said i gain weight, and i said WHAT THE HECK. I DON'T CARE. But but but some remarks pulls my esteem down SO i decided to shoot him/her down only in my mind where everything seems wonderful. Wonderful indeed.

As usual I'm still unclear about what will unfolds in near future. Oh shit, what will happen to me? What will i do? Yeahs, I'm still lost in this world. Lost indeed. So when you asked me what will i do, i just answer I DON'T KNOW.

2009.. What can i say about that year? Well, it contains a lot of shit and puke face people trying to shit and puke at me. I've lost almost everything in the world for just one fuck face. I care too much til it hurts. I give so much that i can call myself DUMB. I love a fuck face that i fail to notice the shit fuck face've done. You only stand up for just once. Once is never enough. I mask a happy face thought a fuck face is the only fucking one for me. I will never let you fuck my life anymore.

I look like I've move on but i don't. It's still hurt. I just want to give a final slap or anything that can inflict pain on you just to give me that satisfaction and pleasure. SHIIT YOU!!

I feel like throwing plates onto the floor. That satisfaction i need.

After giving so much but in the end it doesn't even matter because i still feel empty inside.

This is shiit feelings. I feel like shooting myself. I feel like escaping and run away so far where people can't find me. I need to find me. I can't rely on myself no more.

Want to run away so badly.

Stupid post.