broken

One thing for sure and I am positive with it, is that I can't live without my family
How broken it was, I can't live without them
I am not saying that every family have to be perfect.
How dysfunctional is the family, I just can't live without them

How I grew up without a father. Then I grew up with a step father. Then no father once again
Seeing it all falling apart once again. I grew up in a failing family, it is not that I going to dwell about it.
However with this, I know that this will be my strength.

Strength to pick up each pieces. Not trying to paste everything back, I can't.
I will just love every each moment, everything. Every moment, sad angry or what ever we are feeling
We will just grow stronger small steps

I can't deny that I really wanted a good family, a well to do family but this family will do.
How broken it is, it is still my family. I just can't live without them
How sometimes I wake up tasting failure and disgust, wondering if everything will be okay
It will be okay. Not now. Maybe future.

How broken i was, I am deeply cut. Scarred with anger. I grow up with anger til now.
I am broken

But it does not mean, you have the right to look down on my family. You don't
You are not perfect. We are not perfect. Just live with it like I do now.

People will never be satisfy with time if they do not appreciate time.

Adam Lambert - underneath

Strip away the flesh and bone
Look beyond the lies you've known
Everybody wants to talk about a freak
No one wants to dig that deep
Let me take you underneath
Baby better watch your step
Never mind what's on the left
You're gonna see things you might not wanna see
It's still not that easy for me
Underneath
A red river of screams
Underneath
Tears in my eyes
Underneath
Stars in my black and blue sky
And underneath
Under my skin
Underneath
The depths of my sin
Look at me
Now do you see?
Welcome to my world of truth
I don't wanna hide any part of me from you
I'm standing here with no apologies
Such a beautiful release
You inside of me
A red river of screams
Underneath
Tears in my eyes
Underneath
Stars in my black and blue sky
And underneath
Under my skin
Underneath
the depths of my sin
Look at me
Now do you see?
Underneath
Underneath
Underneath
Underneath
Underneath, yeah
Welcome to my world of truth
A red river of screams
Underneath
Tears in my eyes
Underneath
Stars in my black and blue sky
And underneath
Under my skin
Underneath
the depths of my sin
Look at me
Now do you see?
Underneath
Underneath
Underneath
Look at me, do you see?
yeah, yeah, yeah
Look at me, do see me?
Welcome to my world of truth
I don't wanna hide any part of me from you

sick

Is it my duty to chase after when it is your duty to commit and give willingly.
I am sick and tired of chasing.