I think I am just being selfish by saying happy mother's day to me, myself.
I have stepped up a lot of times when she fails to do her job. I am being selfish, right?
I have this stupid dark feeling inside. I just cannot get it out. I just wish I can drop everything and run. I wish i feel nothing.
This year 2020, Ramadhan is an emotional and mental turmoil for me. I break my fast alone every single day. I am usually alright being alone but this feeling is different. It overwhelms me. Too much.
I don't know what is the definition of mother-father or what they are supposed to do. What are their responsibilities? I am the father-mother to myself, that's how I know it to be.
I don't know anymore.
