I just have no mood in almost everything i do.
A lot of assignment. I wish i can just kill myself without feeling the pain.
I just lost interest to almost everything.

I just don't get it. Why the hell it happened to me?
What did i do? I can't picture myself with someone ignoring me.
It'll be emotional for me.
I should have just shut my pie hole and pretend nothing happen.
God, help me.

I sleep almost every time in train. To and fro.
I sleep like a pig. With all the sudden jerk. Mouth open. Almost miss my station.
Yes, that bad til other passenger actually can laugh.
Yeah right, I'm a clown to you guys.

SOMETIMES

I FEEL THAT YOU DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ME AT ALL.

current addiction.

clumsy

I know, i know. People say i'm clumsy.
Clumsy is my name. What to do.

Serious, i've fallen hard.
Fallen hard.
I think i'm in love.
No no, i am in love.
In love with him. I think so.

I don't know. I just blush whenever i'm with him.
I just love when he kisses me on the forehead.
I feel blessed. Blessed whenever i'm with him.

Is that?? What you call love??

I'm stress.

"Hush Hush"

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you was strong enough, you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself
I don't know why you think you gotta hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me and listen to me
Because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because
I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurt
I never needed you to be there every day

I'm sorry for the way I let go
On everything I wanted when you came along
But I ain't never beatin', broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

insecure.

I feel insecure.
I don't know why.
Even how much you said that.
I still feel insecure.

smokes smokes smokes smokes smokes.

woo~~

I've watched phobia 2
and and and i hugged him. :p

woo~~

I've watched phobia 2

and and and i hugged him. :p

knowing

Realise something.
Jealousy was never in my dictionary.
Jealousy has become a part of me after one incident.
It follow me all the way til now.

That incident has shown me that i don't wish to lose him.
Jealousy made me angry.
Flaming in fire. Furious.
I push him away. Shut him out.

In the end i lost him. Forever.

JPAs

Celebrated Hari Raya with the JPAs. It was awesome. Tiring too. From west to East.