pardon me do my terrible English.
I was diagnosed with bells palsy. do Google it up if you want to know the details.
I was in denial. so angry. so sad.
I woke one day just to realise something was wrong. why can't I drink properly. smile properly. frown properly. I cried. I felt helpless. that's when my self esteem and confidence went down terribly.
I consult a doctor. gave me medications only for 2 weeks supply.
After 2 weeks my condition still remain the same.
2 weeks of fountain. away from guest. away from socialising. I just can't. I cried and cried.
so angry. went to see specialist, well it takes time to recover.
well I have no choice but to force myself back up. I have no choice to have that confidence but my self esteem, well I can't bring it up. I just can't.
every time I smile or laugh I will just cover my mouth because I don't like it. I don't like it when I can't smile properly.
I fear that I can't smile ever again. properly that is.
I have to face this challenge and I must be brave.
Allah s.w.t gave me this challenge and the challenge is accepted.
