Wednesday, December 2, 2015

You are using me? Are you?
Why i got the feeling that you keep a lot from me?
Do you love me?

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Q: When is the best time to do istighfar?
Ans: In the early morning hours (sahur).

Give yourself permission to be the brand new you by doing istighfar in the early morning!


Allah says in Surah Ali-Imran verse 3:17:
الصَّابِرِينَ وَالصَّادِقِينَ وَالْقَانِتِينَ وَالْمُنفِقِينَ وَالْمُسْتَغْفِرِينَ بِالْأَسْحَارِ ﴿١٧﴾

Which means:
"The patient, the true, the obedient, those who spend [in the way of Allah], and those who seek forgiveness before dawn. (17)"


And again in Surah Az-Zariyat verse 51:18:
وَبِالْأَسْحَارِ هُمْ يَسْتَغْفِرُونَ ﴿١٨﴾

Which means:
"And in the hours before dawn they would ask forgiveness, (18)"

Sunday, September 6, 2015

We all love Allah s.w.t., but our love for Him will not overcome His grand love for us. Seek forgiveness from Allah s.w.t. in istighfar insyaAllah Allah s.w.t. will forgive us and change our life for the better!
Allah says in Surah Nuh:
فَقُلْتُ اسْتَغْفِرُوا رَبَّكُمْ إِنَّهُ كَانَ غَفَّارًا ﴿١٠﴾
يُرْسِلِ السَّمَاءَ عَلَيْكُم مِّدْرَارًا ﴿١١﴾
 وَيُمْدِدْكُم بِأَمْوَالٍ وَبَنِينَ وَيَجْعَل لَّكُمْ جَنَّاتٍ وَيَجْعَل لَّكُمْ أَنْهَارًا ﴿١٢﴾
 مَّا لَكُمْ لَا تَرْجُونَ لِلَّـهِ وَقَارًا ﴿١٣﴾

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
And said, 'Ask forgiveness of your Lord. Indeed, He is ever a Perpetual Forgiver. (10) He will send [rain from] the sky upon you in [continuing] showers (11) And give you increase in wealth and children and provide for you gardens and provide for you rivers. (12) What is [the matter] with you that you do not attribute to Allah [due] grandeur (13)

Sunday, August 30, 2015

No. I tried to wait to let this matter rest but today it still bother me that much.
You did not tell me. "Cuci mata"

Am i not pretty enough?
Am i not good enough for You to see?

I know where i stand.

I never look at other guys and say cuci mata.
The only time i look is the guys from television. Not realistic.
Unlike you.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

And if you think im not important to you.
Tell me love.
I will back out.

Friday, May 8, 2015

sometimes we can suddenly feel hurt or upset by
something minor. When this happens, it usually isn't the result of what's going on in the
present, but it's because some hurt from the past was triggered. If you find yourself
feeling scared or upset, just be open and tell

Monday, January 19, 2015

"Anger makes you  smaller, while  forgiveness forces you to  grow beyond what you  were" - Cherie Carter- Scott   

"The past is a foreign  country; they do things  differently there" ~Lesley  P. Hartley   

"To be wronged is  nothing unless you  continue to remember  it" - Confucius?   

"There's no point in  burying a hatchet if  you're going to put up a  marker on the  site"  ~Sydney Harris?   

"Sometimes good things  fall apart so better things  can fall together"-  Marilyn Monroe   

"Holding on to anger is  like grasping a hot coal  with the intent of  throwing it at someone  else; you are the one  getting burned" - Buddha   

"No matter how well you  nurse a grudge, it will  never get better" -Joyce  Smith  

 "No one can go back and  make a brand new start,  my friend, but anyone  can start from here and  make a brand new end" - Dan Zadra 

 "Once a woman has  forgiven her man, she  must not reheat his sins  for breakfast" Marlene  Dietrich   

"Forgiveness does not  change the past, but it  does enlarge the future"  - Paul Boese   

"We are all here for  some special reason.  Stop being a prisoner of  your past. Become the  architect of your future" -  Robin Sharma 

 "We must embrace pain  and burn it as fuel for our  journey" - Kenji  Miyazawa

Monday, January 5, 2015

 When two people are in a relationship, they should bring out the best in one another.  

They should challenge each other to grow so that their attributes strengthen and they become the best versions of themselves. 

 When a relationship crushes you and forces you to shrink, placing a dark mask over the things that make you shine, there are problems brewing.
One person isn't supposed to have absolute power, a relationship should be a democracy, not a dictatorship.

Monday, December 29, 2014

Because people have made her promises in the past and they’ve broken them. Because no matter how hard she works or how good of a person she is, she doesn’t believe she is worthy of love.

Because she’s had too many people leave her – both intentionally and unintentionally – and she doesn’t want to give you the chance to leave too. There are a million reasons she might not be able to believe that you love her. And there will be a million more in the future. She’s been through so much.

So much. She’s had moments where she didn’t know how she was going to keep going.

Moments where she didn’t think she could get out of bed, and worse moments where she did get out of bed and she felt like an empty shell while she was walking around. At some points, she was so lost and so torn up that she wasn’t even sure if she was real. Sometimes she can’t believe that you love her, but other times she doesn’t want to believe that you love her, because that would just be too good, and good is not what she’s used to. She doesn’t want to love you and then lose you.

She’s scared, because having someone and then not suddenly not having them is a lot scarier than being alone. She might be extremely secure with herself, or she might think she is nothing.
She might be somewhere right down the middle. Regardless, she can’t believe she will find love with someone like you, because she hasn’t seen enough of it yet. She’s seen some beautiful love, but she has a hard time remembering that kind of love when she’s watching the sadder stories unfold.

She’s seen her friends get hurt, and she’s seen her friends hurt other people. She knows that breaking someone’s heart doesn’t always mean you’re a jerk or a heartless monster. She knows good people hurt other good people. Sometimes one person just doesn’t love another in the same way.

Sometimes they did love that person and then they fall out of it. Either way, they have to be honest with themselves, and they have to be fair to the other person. In the end, someone always gets crushed. Maybe she’s afraid to love you because she’s been the person that’s broken someone else’s heart. Being hurt doesn’t always have to mean you were on the receiving end.
You can hurt yourself by hurting someone else, to the point where you can’t even breathe and you hate waking up in your own body, knowing what you did and how you made someone else feel. Maybe she loved someone but knew they weren’t the right person for her, so she had to leave them.

And now she’s worried that you’re going to do the same thing to her.
That, even though you love her and you are kindhearted and you have the purest intentions, you still might have to walk away. She knows there are so many reasons why this might not work, so instead of paying attention to the one reason why it will, she focuses on the ways it won’t. It’s called self-preservation, and it’s all she knows. She listens to love songs and she lets them pass through her and she wants them to be her life. But she can’t. She wants to be that sickeningly happy.

To be so in love that you laugh at things that aren’t that funny and so in love that you aren’t fazed by rude people or stressful situations. But she won’t let herself give into the fantasy of leaning her head against the train window and listening to that song and wearing a dizzying smile as she thinks about you. She’d rather stay on the cautious side. This side of things is not thrilling or exhilarating. You don’t get goosebumps, and you don’t feel as if you need to go outside and run a mile in order to get rid of the boundless energy you feel just from thinking about someone else. This side isn’t living. But it’s safe and secure and she has a grip on her head and her heart. She doesn’t feel shaky or unstable. She’s in control. Maybe, technically, she doesbelieve that you love her.

Somewhere inside of her, once you get past all of the defense mechanisms, she is soft and she feels things and she believes that you love her. But this is also the part of her that is the most vulnerable.

She knows that if she’s going to let herself feel what you’re telling her and if she’s going to believe that you love her, she’s going to have to expose her soft side, her vulnerable side – the side she works the hardest to keep safe. She wants to trust you. She wants to believe that you’re different. She wants to give you the chance to break her into a million pieces. But you’ve got to meet her halfway.

You’ve got to let her know that you’re scared too. You’ve got to remind her that you’re just as much at risk, because she can break you into a million pieces too. If she can’t believe that you love her, tell her anyway. Every day. Show her.

Make her understand that you’re not going anywhere. Because at the end of the day, you want her to be staring out that train window, thinking only of you.
http://thoughtcatalog.com/kim-quindlen/2014/12/why-she-doesnt-believe-that-you-love-her/
-Izah

Saturday, December 27, 2014

On the same page.
In the same boat.
we're going down the drain.

I hate those sentence.
I've always stayed. Always.
Even how difficult it was. I had always hang on.
What did I get? Oblivion. Forgotten.

I don't think you've yet to know me.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

What I am feeling right now?
I have no idea.
It's like you don't want to move but you have to.
It's like you don't want to speak but you have to.
It's like you don't want to live but you have to.
I don't know where we heading to.
I am not oblivious to the fact that you are trying to make this right.
However i can't accept the fact you don't know where you heading to.
So where are we now?

I don't want to see you to ignore me.
I don't want to see my dreams all come crashing down.
I still have that child in me.

I want security and safety.
I want togetherness.

oh god.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

pills

The fact that I'm not getting any better.
It marks 1 freaking years I'm having bells palsy on board.
So what's the use of me taking the pills everyday.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]



Saturday, November 29, 2014

alter bridge

"Watch Over You"

Leaves are on the ground
Fall has come
Blue skies turning grey
Like my love

I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go

[Chorus:]
Who is gonna save you
When I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you
When I'm gone?

You say you care for me
But hide it well
How can you love someone
And not yourself?

[Chorus]

And when I'm gone
Who will break your fall?
Who will you blame?

I can't go on
And let you lose it all
It's more than I can take
Who'll ease your pain?
Ease your pain

[Chorus:]
Who is gonna save you when I'm gone?
Who'll watch over you?
Who will give you strength when you're not strong.
Who'll watch over you when I've gone away?

Snow is on the ground
Winters come
You long to hear my voice
But I'm long gone



Sunday, November 16, 2014

Can you don't leave me hanging?

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Chris brown

"Say Goodbye"

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
'cause I know

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Monday, September 29, 2014

The fault in our stars - John green

"And in freedom, most people find sins."

Sunday, September 21, 2014

lingers

Your smile.
your grin.
your smell.
your touch.
your kiss.
your hug.
your loud snore.
your eyes.
your crooked teeth.
Your jokes.
your unique laugh.
your hair.
your arm.
your chest.
your leg.
your butt.
your high pitch voice.
your everything.
:'(